I JP Vanir The Ghetto Geeky, ADHD, Vampyre, Rivethead, Traditional, Hippie Goth, Vegetarian, "Vampyrian" Graver", Pansexual Experimental Sound Artist AKA theUVUP. I am the Old school Gothic Vampyre & Proud PhreaK, and the founder of Vampyrian TempleUVUPsince Dec. 18th 2003. I have been in the gothic community since the first Outland (mid 90's), the pagan community since 2002, as well as the Vampire community since mid 2000. I a love topics about possession, the supernatural, Vampyres, Otherkin, Dark Spirituality, and Darkness ect...
I am mostly volunteering, signing petitions, writing, going out, TempleUVUP and helping others that have gone through the same crap as me. If you need to get a hold of me contact me at: email@example.com
My favorite song
Bloody Pleasures By Blutengel
(German: Blood Angel)
Let me touch your skin Let me see your eyes
You will taste this sweet pain You will like to suffer for me
See the light in my eyes Feel the razorblades on your skin
See your sparkling blood Let me drink your life
And in my world of temptation I will wait for you I'd show you all the pleasures There's so much we can do Don't be afraid my darling Let me be your guiding light Don't be afraid my darling There's no reason for you to hide
I kiss you from your feet To your open mouth
I can hear you cry When your blood begins to flow
I can smell your flesh I can see your greedy eyes
You like to kiss me With your bloody lips
And in my world of temptation (x2) I will wait for you I'd show you all the pleasures There's so much we can do Don't be afraid my darling Let me be your guiding light Don't be afraid my darling There's no reason for you to hide
My favorite singers are: Andrew Eldritch, Robert Smith, and Candia Ridley...
MY FAVORITE MUSIC:
DARK TRANCE! - EBM - INDUSTRIAL - GOTH - DARK ELECTRONIC - TRANCE - GOTH INDUSTRIAL - DRUMMING - PERCUSSION - DARK DANCE...
MY other FAVORITE BANDS ARE: UNTER NULL, THE CURE, SKINNY PUPPY, SNOG, SISTERS OF MERCY,
PROJECT PITCHFORK, NORMORIA,SynthAttack, 6th Circle,ALIEN SEX FIEND, VDevil, and SUICIDE COMMANDO. After that I also like: WUMPSCUT, Throbbing Gristle, SISTERS OF MERCY, Android Lust, WOLFSHEIM, Nine Inch Nails, DEAD CAN DANCE, Dance or Die. BELLA MORTE, CHRISTIAN DEATH, THEATRES DES VAMPIRES, SAMHAIN, FLESH FIELD, DAS ICH, DAVID BOWIE, MISFITS, Suixie and The Banshees, PRINCE, LONDON AFTER MIDNIGHT, ECT.
How does one know if they are a Vampyre? I still and will always believe that Vampyres need energy from other sources because there body does not have enough for what we are. I also believe we are spiritually different than humans and that what we are is a spiritual condition. The simple Definition of Vampyre is one who needs energy (Life force) because our bodies don't have enough because of what we are (Spirit or Soul). We take it through the blood (some of the life force or human energy is in the blood) of be the taking of it directly. Most Vampyres are tired and drained when alone but are usually hyper, often have high anxiety, and feel high and extremely powerful when around large crowds.
I am however in a few other sites and networks. I am also an Empath and Proud Phreak in Central, Ohio. I LOVE MUSIC, clubbing, and dancing...
BLOOD, Vampyres, ADHD, Serial Killers, PAGANISM, Vampyrism, Dark Humor, Possession, Vampire Erotica, LAYLA - LILITH - LILITU, SEKHMET, INDUSTRIAL, GOTHIC, German EBM, Independent Graphics, SOUND, & Media ART (Independent MUSIC & Media), BEAUTIFUL PALE SKIN, Hannibal Lecter, SERIAL KILLERS, INKUBUS SUKKUBUS, Robert Smith, Hoodies, Trent Rezner, THE HAMILTONS, QUEEN OF THE DAMNED, PHANTOM OF THE OPERA, DRACULA, PERCUSSION, LAYLA (MY DARK MOTHER), HECATE, FREYA, ANUBUS, SET, DEMON UNDER GLASS, Tim Burtin, Bela Lugosi, Edward Scissorhands, Edgar Allen Poe, Christopher Walken, Rocky Horror Picture Show, Interview With The Vampire, Nightmare Before Christmas, SADISM, SAMHAIN, Halloween, Eyeliner, Gothic Fashion, Synthesizers, Expressionism, SINGING, PERFORMING, George A. Romero, David Bowie, Christian Death, BELLA MORTE, Dead Can Dance, Musicals, Safety pins, Buttons, My Scottish German Heritage, Psychic Abilities, Energy, Hearses, UK, Christina Ricci, Sharp objects, Dancing, Norse Celtic Mythology, Cats, JOHNY DEPP, Prince, Necks, Breasts, Tantra, Empathic, Reincarnation, Theology, Lyrics, Lost Girl...
My Favorite Movies and TV shows:
Vampire, Supernatural, Dark Humor, Slapstick, and Documentaries. But mostly really Dark Obscure Stuff...
Shotgun Wedding (2013) and God Bless America (2011) are what this fucked up nation has done to itself...
My favorite movies now are God Bless America (2011) and *The Matrix trilogy. I also like Avatar, and Caprica* LIFE FORCE - THE HAMILTON'S – MARTIN - DAWN (more realistic vamp movies), THIRST (1979) (At least the Vampires let the humans have pleasure as they feed from them unlike humans as they torture there food; however I do disagree with forced awakening), How to be a Serial Killer! (Great funny ass shit), BLOOD TIES, THE DEATHS OF IAN STONE, PHANTOM OF THE OPERA, AVATAR, DRACULA, QUEEN OF THE DAMNED, ALL Hannibal Lecter & Serial killer Movies\TV Shows, Dylan Dog (Dead of Night), THE OMEGA MAN (I prefer the Vampires or at least the leader Spiritual Vampire to the humans who created the plague), DRACULA 2000, SUCK, The PERFECT CREATURE, VAMPYRES, ULTRAVIOLET, VAMPIRES, Cottage Country, Perfect Sisters (2014 => but they should have gotten away with it!) The UNDERWORLD MOVIES, Doctor Strange, The Usual Suspects, DEMON UNDER GLASS, LEGEND, EDWARD SCISSORHANDS, THE LOST BOYS, INTERVIEW THE VAMPIRE, CANADIAN BACON, ED WOOD FILMS, THE DARK HALF, Night of the Living Dead Films, POWDER, THE ADDAMS FAMILY, THE ADDICTION, THE ROCKY HORROR PICTURE SHOW, CORPSE BRIDE, NIGHTMARE BEFORE CHRISTMAS, VAMPIRE JOURNALS, V FOR VENDETTA, VAMPIRE INTERVIEWS, the ADDICTION, DOGMA, CLERKS (both), BILLY MADISON, WHITE ZOMBIE, SID and NANCY, ALMOST ANYTHING BY MICHEAL MOORE, 12 MONKEYS, EMBRACE OF THE VAMPIRE, THE JERK, SOUTH PARK THE MOVIE, PURPLE RAIN, ECT...
I DON’T LIKE MANY NEW SHOWS. I LIKED TRUE BLOOD, ANGEL, FOREVER KNIGHT, GATES, BLOOD TIES, American Horror Story, FRINGE, & the ADDAMS FAMILY. Only things new I like are Humans, LOST GIRL, Continuum, FROM DUSK TILL DAWN THE SERIES, HANNIBAL, Grimm, 12 Monkeys, Supernatural, Fargo, (real) Humans, The 100, The Gifted, and Vikings...
My Favorite Books: The Vampyrian Shadow book, pagan and earth-centered voices in Unitarian Universalism, and books about real Vampyres, paganism, theology, goths, animal rights, ect...
Morbid Obscurity, Peace, Love, Death, and Respect...
In case you don't know as much as you think you do about me one of my biggest pet peeves besides people telling me being goth is all about how you look (fashion) is people who mistake a work for the wrong meaning especially polyamory. Too many people mistake it for being all about having multiple sex partners but it actually means many LOVES not polysexica let me break it down for you: it come from Greek πολύ [poly], meaning "many" or "several", and Latin amor, "love"). OK I will be good now lol...
IT'S LIFE THAT I INGEST
***My addiction's are my herbal tea's and clove's!***
LOOKING FOR DONORS, FRIENDS AND VAMPIRES TO ADORE...
LET ME DRINK YOUR ENERGY...
I am starving here in a dead land…
IT'S LIFE THAT I INGEST
***My addiction's are my herbal tea's and Energy drinks. My bad habits are Cigars esp. Clove's and Wine!***
I SEE THE LIGHT AND IT HURTS...
***Vegetarian Vampyre: I do not eat dead flesh (dead animal meat) However I do feed on humans but at least they are still alive and do not suffer...
There is a chasm of possibility between our everyday lives and our deepest, truest selves. Halloween is the holiday for recognizing that reality, and maybe doing a little something about it.
Children play dress-up to get a handle on the slippery subject of identity. Knowing what we are, and what we are not, is a powerful aspect of defining ourselves.
As adults, however, we can become far too married to our identities. Halloween is the day to break free.
Every Day but Halloween
Truth be told, Halloween is not the only day we play dress up. We wear costumes every day. There is our work-costume, family-costume, home-costume, Internet-costume and so on. For every circumstance, we have a different “costume” we wear.
Nor are our daily costumes inherently fake. They are tools — broad methods of communicating meaning and negotiating value. How we dress, how we hold ourselves, how we talk, and so forth can never be wholly and truly authentic.
We can only be authentic to the rules of each and every situation. This is because our notions of who we are do not exist in a vacuum. In fact, our identities (at best) provide the social tools that help us fulfill most of our needs. They provide the rules for connection with others and proper boundaries that keep us safe. But identities, if too carefully constructed, can become straitjackets. If we are to maintain some semblance of sanity, identity cannot be static; we constantly negotiate it in the shifting contexts of our lives.
As malleable as our identities are, at the end of the day we are far more than the sum of our roles. That is why there are entire industries, from entertainment to psychology, that help us rectify the distance between the everyday realities of life and who we could be.
This constant monitoring and shifting of identity is real work. It is the labor on which our civilization rests. Without it, we would tear ourselves apart.
But no matter how necessary, it is exhausting. And so, one day a year, we give ourselves permission to cast the rules to the wind and become what we are.
This is not dress-up to explore, but a claiming of our own power. This is Halloween!
This Is Halloween
Some holidays have to do with putting our wrongdoings behind us and promising to be better people. Others are about giving thanks for what we have. These are worthwhile things to do.
Halloween isn’t about any of that. Halloween is the day we admit that we are far more than we pretend to be.
Hidden inside of us might be a sexy beast, a princess born worthy of respect, a powerful wizard shaping reality, or even a horrific monster. We all have parts of ourselves that we do not share into the world. This is the price of civilization.
And so, as the Fall turns colder and the leaves change, we are allowed for a moment to open up a bit. The rules are not cast aside, but for a brief time, we exist within a different set of constraints.
The Rules of Halloween
In many ways, Halloween is like a game. We agree to certain rules, for a certain time.
Halloween is not anarchy, but rather a parade of revealing. As such, it has unspoken rules.
Halloween has boundaries, both in time and space.
We will not judge each other for what we reveal.
By keeping the holiday safe, we keep it for future generations.
It would probably be a terrible idea to simply allow everyone, for one night, to truly let out the hidden parts of ourselves. As Halloween revelers, we do not let our suppressed selves truly run amok. Our shadows are let out, but only to play nice.
While I am as big a fan as the next Pagan of the run-up to Halloween, the holiday itself is bound to a sacred time and place. Halloween is the time when we get to share a little bit of who we are. Yet, there is danger in over-sharing.
The holiday does not work if we judge each other for what we reveal. If we understand that everyone walks around in costumes every day, then a blow-off day becomes reasonable. But it does not work if cannot accept what other people reveal.
At the same time, there will always be boundaries. We have to reinforce the idea that this is a game. Dressing up as a pirate is great. Bringing a live sword is uncool in most contexts. Probably the most important Halloween rule is safety first.
This Is Samhain
Samhain, the Pagan holiday that coincides with Halloween, is about the thinning of the veil between the everyday world and the the spiritual one that begins just beyond our sight.
Halloween and Samhain are tied together by their theme of revealing. This is the time when we peer beyond and see what is normally hidden from us. But while Halloween exists in the social sphere and is about revealing the self, Samhain goes much deeper.
At the ending and beginning of the Wheel of the Year, Pagans gather to accept and revel in the truth that we are more than our everyday selves. We are everything that exists not only between birth and death, but also everything that lies beyond.
The holiday, Halloween, is about revealing hidden truths about who we are. The holy day, Samhain, is about revealing the mysteries of the Self.
If Halloween is about dressing up and revealing ourselves to others, Samhain is about shedding out everyday costumes entirely and revealing the truth of who we are.
The Holiday of Transformation
Halloween and Samhain are two sides of the same coin. They both encompass a process of revealing, a creation of a new context, and a recognition of the limitations of the masks we wear in our lives.
In Halloween, we reveal to those around us a little bit of who we are. In the ritual of Samhain, we ask that more of ourselves be revealed to us.
Both of these holidays require that we set aside the rules of the everyday. Halloween is a moment where we set aside the everyday self. The Pagan holiday goes further. In that magical space, we set aside our limitations and become something more.
Halloween is the day to wear a mask that reveals more than it hides. Samhain is the night we drop our masks and become what we are.
Nobody in history regardless of the circumstances has managed to level the playing field and score against injustices by asking politely for people to please remove the boot from their necks. We’ve been battling a massive amount of grief in the news in regards to hatred, discrimination, and crimes. And this grief is very explicitly against those who are not white, straight, cisgendered men.
These particular men actively hate women, LGBTQIA+, and other races, and are looking to remove what little progress we’ve made in regards to basic human rights and then some, and to make matters worse, there are the white women suffering from massive amounts of Stockholm Syndrome who support these monsters. The entitlement and privilege from the minority of elites has been thrust in our faces in the form of pictures of sniveling white men who aren’t qualified to run a 7-11 let alone be in an important government position. The situation is dire, and the backlash of the privileged against those who have traditionally been not has been rapidly accelerating. Every time we think the bar can’t get any lower, some entitled creature in a position of power barks out, “Hold my many beers, I’ve got this.”
What does this mean for us? In case it hasn’t been spelled out in the past, we witches and occultists shoulder a great deal on our shoulders and backs. We run around for other people, we fight our own battles and causes, but for many of us who are either female, LBGTQIA+, and/or not-white, we are more than just frazzled and exhausted. We are fighting our own personal battles, especially those of us who are reliving our traumas. We are trying desperately to get our own oxygen masks on, but it’s hard to do when you’re too busy screaming. And we’re running out of air.
Too many of us are being retraumatized due to having PTSD and all of the issues that come with it. I blogged the other day aboutself care and handling your rage in the age of #MeToo and #WhyIDidNotReport, and some of us are just plain running out of spoonsto continue the fight. Those of us who still any left must pick up the slack and do our best to get into the front lines because as bad as it’s gotten and as bad as it is, it’s only going to get worse from here. We have an opportunity coming up to turn the ship around but if for some reason it fails, we are screwed and things WILL go downhill rapidly. I cannot put that politely or tactfully, nor do I have a prayer of being able to overstate this fact. We are running out of time, and the most basic and fundamental of human rights are at stake. Signing petitions is as good as thoughts and prayers and in a world where the opposition is breaking rules right, left, and center we cannot afford to stay the course, be proper, and dutifully painting within the lines. As I’ve said before, witches arenaturally subversive. It’s not our job to be respected and acceptable; our power comes from challenging existing power structures, not supporting them.
And this is where not just the practical work, but the magical work comes in. We are needed, we are so very, very badly needed right now. We cannot afford complacency, procrastination, or any sense of idealistic notions of being rescued by someone else. We. Are. It. Through sheer grit and determination, we are going to have to harness everything we’ve got and put it out there and on a practical level we must prepare for how to react to the absolute worst. Because if we don’t, those who are even less well off than us will suffer even more. So if you have it, use it.
If you need tips on how to get involved magically, definitely read my post onmagical activism. Many of us are already engaged and engaging in such activities, and to you I simply say, “Stay on target, and stay the course.” This marathon is being run in the middle of a torrential downpour with potholes in the road, mudslides, and there are tornadoes and earthquakes in the forecast. Take care of yourself whenever you can. Hug your family and friends. For those of us not yet engaged, please do so however way you can and whatever works best with your skill set. It must also be noted that you don’t need to be an American to appreciate the severity and devastating impact that this country is currently having on the world and not just ourselves, and I am well aware of how many are watching from the outside and seriously freaking out.
And remember that as witches and occultists in general we do not ask for power, we expect it. We invoke it–not begging or pleading, but actively demanding it. If it wanders, we call it back. If we have not been assertive enough in the past, now’s the time and a lot is riding on it. We cannot afford to be timid at this hour. None of us can.
Posted by Rev. JP Vanir on
Monday, October 08, 2018 at
As Unitarian Universalists, celebrating Indigenous Peoples Day in lieu of Columbus Day is a choice to celebrate the inherent worth and dignity of every person and to end the glorification of the cultural and ecological genocide caused by colonization.
Posted by Rev. JP Vanir on
Sunday, October 07, 2018 at
For a while I have been against Wiccan beliefs but it is only certain things now as some of there beliefs are pretty close to Christianity. I have been reading some of there books as I am a theologian and one thing that is very close to what I believe is the pursuit of Spiritual Evolution and divinity to become gods...
taking some time off of being on the internet doing spring cleaning in my 3 bedroom house and packing up most of it to move soon
not sure how long it will take getting old and have health issues and bad back etc, so please dont delete me, i may pop in from time to time and make a few themes on my site if i have time but will be away from all other site for a while, bb, snowwolf