Yearning for the Presence of Our Gods By John Beckett

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Two weeks ago I posted In the DoldrumsÖ But the Wind is Beginning to Stir. I asked those who work with deities and other spirits if they had noticed an extended period of silence. Not absence, just silence. It was mainly a request for feedback.

Readers obliged. I got lots of comments: here, on Facebook, and in private communications.


I didnít do detailed statistical analysis, but Iíd say about 70% of the responses agreed with my observations. Many of them said something along the lines of ďI thought it was just me.Ē It isnít Ė lots of us are experiencing it.

About 20% said their experiences and communications were as active as ever. And about 10% said something that didnít directly address the question.


Itís good when we share our experiences. Hearing other peopleís stories helps us remember that while interpretations may be more accurate or less accurate, our experiences are real and deserve to be taken seriously.

After two weeks of contemplation I have something to say about these spiritual doldrums and what I think they mean.



Different Gods, different people, different ways


This isnít anything new. Monotheists have always argued that their God is the only God and therefore we should all relate to him (itís always a him) in the same ways. This concept requires constant reinforcement: creeds, catechisms, and demands for orthodoxy. Without that reinforcement people start to pay attention to their own experiences, which are neither monolithic or monotheist.


Polytheists have always understood that different Gods call different people to worship and work with Them in different ways. The God of the Sun and the Goddess of the Moon are different persons. The Gods of the Greeks are different from the Gods of the Norse.

Even for those of us who follow the same deities, what the Morrigan wants from me isnít necessarily what She wants from you. And why should She? My skills and abilities are different from yours Ė why would She ask me to do something that you can do much better?


So it makes perfect sense that even though a large majority of us are experiencing a period of quiet, some arenít.


We are not Their only concern


This is also not a new thing. We speak of ďour GodsĒ not in the sense of Them belonging to us but in the sense of being in relationship with Them, the way we speak of ďour familyĒ or ďour city.Ē

And just as our parents and siblings and cousins have concerns that do not involve us, so do our Gods. While the Gods are more than Their functions, those functions occupy a fair amount of their attention. They are not just the Gods of humans Ė They are also the Gods of rabbits and squirrels and stars and mountains and everything else.


Christians argue that their God is intensely concerned with each and every person, at each and every moment. Whether their experiences support that assumption is a matter for Christians to debate. As Pagans and polytheists we understand that while our Gods want what They want, They have no interest in micromanaging our lives.


I have very strong connections to the Gods to whom I am oathed Ė They never go away. But sometimes They go silent, for reasons that have everything to do with Them and nothing to do with me. And the responses to these questions make it clear Iím far from unique in this matter. The Gods have concerns that donít involve us.



Tower Time has an Otherworldly component I think Iíve written enough about Tower Time and The Storm that all of you know what Iím talking about, but if youíre new here, this post from last summer explains exactly what I meanÖ to the extent any of us know what itís all about.


I have numerous suspicions and speculations about Tower Time. I donít have enough evidence to make any firm conclusions Ė Iíve barely got enough to form a working hypothesis. But itís how Iím trying to make sense of everything going on and to figure out my place in all of it.

Over the past few years weíve experienced a shredded veil between the worlds and instances of the Otherworld bleeding through into this world. So when any number of Gods and spirits go silent for a large number of people, itís reasonable to assume Theyíre busy on the Other side.


Are They resting? Planning? Working? Fighting? They arenít telling me anything, and I have no way of knowing. No matter how strongly we think our speculations are correct, itís important to acknowledge Ė mainly to ourselves Ė that speculations are speculations and not facts.

But until I see reason to believe otherwise, Iím going to operate on the assumption that this silence is due to Their involvement in the Otherworldly components of this great metaphysical shift weíre experiencing.


We have a yearning for the presence of our Gods


I canít help looking for the big picture in all this: whatís going on, why is it happening, and what does it mean for us and for the world at large? At the same time, itís important to consider the more personal implications of this period of silence.


We can speculate all we like, but what we know is this: for many of us, the Gods and spirits who have been loud and demonstrative presences in our lives have gone silent. Communication we found meaningful and helpful has stopped. We were so busy with the pandemic and responses to injustice and our own lives that we didnít notice it right away.


But eventually we did.

And we miss it.


Some people Ė including some Pagans Ė arenít interested in the Gods. Iím not talking about atheists. Iím talking about people who either treat Them like vending machines or who simply donít want to deal with Them.


You do you Ė Iím not here to change your mind. But I canít understand that approach. Iíve experienced the first-hand presence of several deities and thereís nothing like it. It is simultaneously humbling and empowering. Iím not ready to go full-mystic (not only have I not been asked to do that, Iíve been forbidden from it) but that divine silence leaves a hole in my life. And I want it filled.



We have not been abandoned


From the first time I noticed this, Iíve described it as ďsilence, not absence.Ē Most responses described a similar feeling. Our Gods are not angry and we have not been abandoned.

Theyíve just been otherwise occupied. And as usual, They arenít saying much about what Theyíre doing.

But as I said in the original Doldrums post, the wind is beginning to stir. Or at least, itís beginning to stir for me. What I donít know is whether this period of relative silence is ending, or if Iím just moving from the 70% group to the 20% group. Different Gods, different people, different ways.

As always, we will see how it goes. Iíll write about what I can write about, and I ask you to continue sharing what experiences Ė or lack thereof Ė you can share.


Author:JP the DDG Aspie Vamp
Published:Aug 10th
Modified:Aug 10th

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